Awakening is a word that I never heard before my late 40s but it was obviously there before…just not in my awareness.
It can happen at any time, any age and in any areas of life.
Although it is not the only one but, Astrology is (for me) THE tool you need to really understand yourself and your cycles and patterns.
For me, this happened in my 10th House which is career, public image, reputation, community status…
I kind of talked about it in this video on Youtube but, OMG! so much happened after that video. (I need to make a second one now).
More and more people are awakening now because it is the time for it and this was already known by the ancients by looking at the stars.
This sh1t is mind blowing, trust me.
We’re about to enter the Aries vortex in the next couple of years (2025-2026) and this re-set will last approximately until the year 2032 so, 8 years from now.
I pray to the Universe to be able to see it with my own physical eyes.
My Awakening
This is kind of complex and as unique as any of us human beings on this planet so it can be different for different people.
There are also macro and micro awakenings.
Joyful or dramatic.
Sudden or gradual.
Forced by circumstances or totally natural.
Mine happened around the Spring of 2021.
No need to say that the year before we all had the most shocking events of our entire existence on Earth as a collective.
It broke our tiny worlds.
But if you’re on the path as I am, you’ll agree it was a blessing in disguise.
Now…
At that time in 2021 I still did not know that.
I was watching a Youtube video (I was hooked to spiritual and metaphysic stuff).
It was a Dolores Cannon video.
She was talking about the waves of volunteers (souls) who kind of ‘signed up’ for this “mission”: the great awakening of humanity.
And when she mentioned that group born in the 60s/70s (remember time and space are human constructions so this is just a rough guess), she said that they usually had this feeling of “wanting to go home”.
Oh man, my heart started beating faster and my stomach shrunk. I could hardly breath properly and could not stop crying.
It lasted good 20 minutes.
I cannot describe it better. I was having a panic attack.
I knew later when trying to make sense of what happened. I never had one before.
That was one of the moments I will never forget in my entire life.
Everything (me, I guess) changed. Suddenly I felt that I understood.
I still did not know exactly what but I knew life wasn’t what I had thought so far it was.
Life is a Game
I spent days in a sort of cloud difficult to describe.
My personal circumstances, myself, my job, my relationship, etc. were kind of breaking down.
I felt broken.
My job (not this online one that was emerging but the matrix one) was suddenly the most unfulfilling and nonsensical of all.
I could not make sense of it or the people I had to work with (even though it was online!).
Everyday felt like a battle to stay sane.
We used to have daily online meetings and I could simply not deal with it.
Let’s show it graphically (I love AI for this sh1t).
You’ll hear me (or read me) talking about power a lot. Your power, which is, essentially, your life.
Your life force is the energy you need to stay alive and keep you going.
Some people, places, circumstances…just take your power and let you drained.
Some others irradiate such a good quality of energy that recharge you and make you feel amazing and power-FILLED.
Well, that was for me a total drainage. All of it. The tasks, the meetings, the people.
It was like popping a hose into my ass (sorry for the graphic reference but it felt like that) that sucked all my life force through there.
I burnt-out.
I then had to go off sick as I was mentally unstable and struggling big time.
My online job as an Adult digital creator was ongoing as a side hustle.
If anything it helped more than not because, at least, was really rewarding financially and that allowed me to have this feeling of safety our animal lower chakras crave.
Plus (as I might share one day in detail) it really did not take even a 10th of the physical time the other matrix job took.
Therapy
I went into therapy for about 9 months after that and it really helped.
My therapist could actually understand what was going on with me (or she was a great actress).
She could see how I did not feel like I belonged to THAT world anymore.
I could not relate to those people who had a perception of what was going on in the world (and in their lives!) totally opposed to the one I had come to the realization of.
I felt like I was playing a board game.
Life is a game.
But then I felt like I knew the rules of the game and how to play it and they (the rest) didn’t.
And it was not only frustrating but boring and lacking any meaning whatsoever.
To be continued…