Midlife Shift, Crisis and a Tantrum

Weekly Letter, May, 7th, 2024

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This week has been a bit foggy to say the least. Heavy energies feeling like a brick on the top of my head and some epiphany glimpses.

Oh by the way, my Youtube channel has been demonetized. I woke up to that lovely email on Monday. I was making just enough to pay my gas bill 😆but still…gone.

I’ll tell you about it in more detail in another post because it is a very useful information for self-development.

Hint: I actually felt a relief (a positive slap in the face).

Photo by Markus Winkler on Unsplash

Apart from that, I am signing up to train as a Spiritual Counsellor (yep, you’ve read well). I have been told more than once by the Astrologers I have readings with that I’d make a great one so I am taking the plunge.

“But you’re old!”

“Will you go and fack yourself for a bit and then come back with something actually constructive and less outdated and narrow-minded? Thanks😁”

Midlife Shift

This won’t be my first shift in Midlife. A few years ago I was literally sitting on a desk for 8 hours a day and doing a meaningless job.

I was happy though for a few years… until I separated and could not make ends meet with “that job” alone.

That’s when my spicy page was born and I could top up and actually live instead of just barely get by.

But back to the soulless job.

Once I started to question what was actually the purpose of doing that office job…

The answer was: “The (not enough to live alone) salary” 🥲 so I started feeling empty and unfulfilled by it and then started not being happy.

Since I already had built an alternative online income showing my tits around and went through a huge personal crisis (people call it depression, I call it a soul yelling for attention) I ended up quitting that job.

That’s shift number one. More on my upcoming book.

"Midlife Crisis is the best thing that can happen to you in order to grow. No crisis and you'll end up having one at your death bed"

Miss Dawson "the wise woman"

Midlife Crisis

We associate the word ‘crisis’ with a negative thing. It is not. The Universe itself was created from chaos. Without chaos there is no order.

Chaos is necessary. Crisis is necessary.

So it is a positive thing.

I am not talking about the typical Midlife crisis when you buy yourself a new car or a motorbike.

That’s so superficial!

That’s a Midlife tantrum, not a crisis.🙄

Crisis touches your soul and your heart, not your bank account 😅

Crisis = Challenge

A life without challenges would not be worth living (this might trigger some people but, in all honestly, that’s because they haven’t actually reflected on it).

It makes the difference between existing and actually living.

Existing is really cool and, in this rat race society style, also very needed.

Pausing. Slowing down. Going inwards. Being and not doing…

All good stuff and also contributing to personal spiritual growth.

However, only existing puts you at the level of a plant or a pet.

Bless our pets 🐱 Have you observed your pet and wonder what their existence is like?

They just exist and give unconditional love.

Really nice but not useful when you’re an actual human.

Humans need to live (a more complicated) life because we have a mind that, if you don’t know how to control, it controls you.

Anyway…

Midlife crisis is the best thing for you so embrace it and make the most of it!

I think I live in perpetual crisis sometimes cause it is exhausting, man!

So what’s Shift number 2?

Well, ignoring the shifts I already made in the past (I am a shift kinda girl) the first one already in midlife was from office job to naked spicy artist as exposed above.

But this is not totally fulfilling to be completely honest. It’s fun but it lacks purpose.

Especially since I felt this spiritual awakening and have been shifting towards a less materialistic and outwards way of living.

The Inner Walkabout has been the result of this shift.

So the shift number two is from naked spicy artist to writer ✏️ which is what I am doing right this second.

And there’ll be more…shift number 3, number 4… I am sure.

My Message for you today

If you’re actually still reading, I love you ❤️(unconditionally, at pet level).

You’re in the right mindset for this crazy life as, at least, have curiosity and some interest in learning by listening to a crazy mystic woman like me.

If you’re not here anymore…then why would I say something to someone who is not here?🤔

Well, I will anyway. I’ll send the message to their etheric bodies and, hopefully, they’ll get it energetically somehow.

Dear person,

(who replies to my Weekly Letter with nasty sexual comments and insults)

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More next week 😊