Not the best of weeks I am afraid
Weekly Letter July 5th, 2024
We have gone from a heat wave in the UK to a pretty much Autumn weather this week and it is grey and dull outside. So not helping the mood.
A LOT (and I mean a LOT) has been going on with my 50 year old “bit-fed-up-with-life” woman’s avatar (unnecessary long way to say “with ME” 🙄).
Firstly, another micro awakening with something that has blown my mind this week.
Have you ever heard this saying?
“Life is not a destination, it is a journey”.
I bet you have.
I understand what that means and that it is about enjoying the process BUT, that still states that life is about going from A to B, right?
And that, while you get to B…you have to enjoy the journey with all the experiences along the way.
Well, get ready to get your mind blown now.
Life is NOT a journey
This is not coming from my brilliant philosopher mind though. I won’t take the credit for it. It comes from Alan Watts who I find fascinating.
No, friends, life is not a journey because a journey means you are somewhere and want to go somewhere else in order to feel fulfilment or success.
And, although success has so much to be discussed about, none of us can deny that we think that we have to:
Get a better job, a better house, a better holiday, a better hairstyle, a better relationship, more sex, more money, more exercise, more muscle, less bodyweight…and the list is endless…
There is always something we want!
And yes, alright, life itself is driven by desire, the Universe was created out of desire (this is very metaphysical but you’ll find it out if you look at esoteric and ancient teachings).
But what life is … is a dance!
Think of a couple on the dance floor (ok, naked if you prefer as sounds hot).
Are they going anywhere?
No, they are moving around from one corner to the other and back, spinning…they are just dancing to the music but there is no expectations in terms of where to go or where to be, for how long, in what position…they just flow.
In that same sense, think of animals.
Birds don’t have internet and a GPS…how on earth do they know where to emigrate when the time comes?
How do they even know when the time comes??
They sense it because they are attuned with nature and their true inner self.
They just let life happen.
We humans don’t.
Let it Flow…is that the answer then?
No, it does not mean that we don’t have to feel desire or have goals.
We are not animals (well, some of you are😆).
**sorry, bad joke**
We have a mind that is a biological computer (quite literally).
But it has stricken me that letting life happen saves you from the, now so generalised, anxiety of wanting to ‘control’ what cannot really be controlled.
The outside world, that is. Along with most of the outcomes.
The only thing you can control is your inner world and, most people don’t even know what that is 😬
Talking of Inner…
Along with the spiritual stuff that I live by, there is also the physical, right?
Our body and its needs. Not only at a desire level (I want to eat a burger or I need to get off) but also at a biological level.
Many of you know my skin has been suffering for… (was it forever?) and, honestly, now at 50 is kind of a joke really.
Long story short I have had a mineral test done and I am all over the place.
In the report you can literally read: “Your system has been stressed for a long time so your adrenal glands and potentially thyroid are depleted”
I feel shit, that’s the truth so I am making changes!!!
Bye-Bye Coffee
It hurts, it really does. More than a divorce.
But I am quitting coffee as I need to try ‘new’ things.
Apparently caffeine kicks my adrenaline levels off and that’s the last thing my stressed body needs right now.
All this is to say I am in a really bad mood and have a headache so…I bite.
I’ll leave it there for this week and, if I survive the withdrawal, next week I’ll promise a smile.
But before you go…
I am so grateful for the replies to my last letter about the ‘sexless marriage’ stories. Thank you so much to the ones who have sent me their story.
I have read them all and I’ll be making videos about them 🤗
Also some very hot 🔥 stories on a train 😉
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