I’ve just been on a (non) holiday.
Well… yeah. Visiting family. That is.
For years, that was my annual “holiday” getaway. And man! I’ve had enough. So now I keep it as short as I can, but still…
I swear the actual plane I take is a time machine. Because the moment I land, I’m straight into “Back to the Future: Apocalyptic Edition.” It’s grey. It’s grim. It’s painful.
Just before my eyes, I see what I call “small lives” at play.
Like I’m forced to take off my beautiful, colored glasses (the ones I see my life through) and all of a sudden, everything looks like a dystopian dream.
Half-dead eyes. Silent suffering.
Routines that haven’t moved an inch since 1984.
Life is change, right?
Well, this must be death.
Because nothing ever changes.
But I don’t say this from a place of judgment.
I say it from a place of heartbreak 💔
I Grew Up in It
Half my family were deeply religious.
The other half just followed out of guilt and habit.
I did as told. I got my First Communion.
And by age 9, I already felt something was off.
Fast-forward to now, 2025.
Most of them are either gone or emotionally bankrupt.
Still waiting for life to start.
They blame the government.
They blame the other political party.
They blame “the rich.”
But they never (ever) stop to ask:
“What if I’ve been trained to play a game I was never meant to win?”
They believe they did everything right.
No PhDs in my family 😂 but they had jobs, marriages, kids, mortgages…
And still feel all is wrong.
They’re broken, but they don’t even know why 😓
They believe life is hard, that only the rich can live well, that suffering is noble and, most of all, they’ve never considered that maybe they’re responsible for the life they live.
Not because they’re bad people.
But because no one ever taught them the Truth.
The System Is Evil
Let me tell you a secret they never told you in Sunday School:
Jesus wasn’t killed for being spiritual.
He wasn’t crucified for preaching in sandals.
He was killed because he told the religious system it was full of shit.
That’s the real reason.
You don’t get crucified for being spiritual.
You get crucified when you become a threat to the system.
When you tell people the Kingdom of God isn’t in their church, or their priest, or their Bible - but inside themselves?
Boom! You’re dangerous.
What To Do With That Truth
Not everyone can be a peaceful rebel like Jesus.
Some of us - depending on our trauma, background, or biology - will act out our rebellion violently.
When we’re full of fear and unresolved emotion, when we don’t know ourselves, when we’ve never looked inside…
We don’t awaken.
We project.
That’s how wars happen.
That’s how the system wins, by keeping you reacting, not reflecting.
Jesus Wasn’t Preaching Religion
And that’s the world we have today.
This world isn’t built to support people who wake up and start questioning.
Why?
Because you can’t be controlled if you’re conscious.
We were not taught the real stuff but only a manipulated and distorted one, most people have no way to face their own lives successfully, let alone challenging the system.
Jesus did challenge the system.
He called them serpents. Vipers.
Not the prostitutes. Not the drunks.
The religious leaders.
He said:
“You take away the key of knowledge…
you don’t enter in yourselves,
and you stop others from going in.” - Luke 11:52
Because the Truth?
The temple was never outside. It’s you.
Your body. Your mind. Your inner world.
“The Kingdom of God is within you.” - Luke 17:21
And what did they do to that guy again?🤔
Yeah. Exactly.
Here’s what he actually said:
“If your eye be single, your whole body shall be full of light.” - Matthew 6:22
That’s the pineal gland, by the way.
The “third eye.” It secretes melatonin. It heals. It lights you up.
“When you pray, enter the closet and shut the door.” - Matthew 6:6
Not a literal closet.
It means go within.
Shut off the noise.
“Take no thought.” - Matthew 6:25
Not “don’t care.”
But: stop trying to control life with your mind.
Open your heart instead.
Do You Still Believe the Lie?
Let’s talk about you who are still reading…
You were born into a system that never wanted you conscious - only compliant.
They handed you a script before you could even speak:
Be a man. Be strong. Don’t feel. Don’t cry. Don’t need.
Numb your heart.
Ignore your body.
Forget your dreams.
Pay your bills.
Smile for the photo.
Get a woman. Keep her happy.
Get a job. Keep it forever.
Get a house. Fill it with things you don’t even want.
And above all - don’t ask questions.
Especially not spiritual ones.
Especially not the ones that begin with "What if what I’ve been told…?"
And you followed it.
Because you're a good man.
You did what was expected.
But lately… something’s twitching under your skin.
Something’s rattling the cage.
A strange ache. A holy unrest.
Not depression. Not midlife crisis.
Rebellion.
That’s the Divine inside you.
Waking up.
Stretching its arms.
Ready to tear the mask off.
It's the part of you that refuses to be buried alive.
It’s your inner fire that always rises up.
It’s your soul.
They Made It a Church. He Meant a Frequency.
Jesus wasn’t teaching religion. He was teaching consciousness.
He was teaching vibration.
“Cast your net to the right side.” - John 21:6
Not about fishing.
It’s about the right hemisphere of your brain - your intuition, creativity, Spirit.
“I send prophets and wise men… but you scourge them in your synagogues.” -Matthew 23:34
They get mocked. Cancelled. Laughed at.
But the system needs them (because the system is a lie).
It’s not built to heal you. It’s built to control you.
You’re Not Dumb, You’re Terrified
When I look at my parents’ life, I cry.
When I see my brother’s life, I cry.
They see the lies.
They’re disillusioned.
They know the system’s corrupt.
But instead of turning inward… they turn to rage.
They get stuck in survival mode.
Stuck in the “survival of the fittest” con.
Stuck in “if I don’t win, I’ll die.”
But that’s not the real story.
That’s the trauma talking.
Because to face the real Truth (to look within) is terrifying.
What if it gets worse?
What if I lose everything?
But I say…
What if… it is the beginning of freedom.
What if God isn’t a man in the clouds…
but the part of you that dares to ask:
“What if I’m meant for more than this?”
The Age of Aquarius Is Here (And Jesus Knew)
Fun fact:
“When you see the man with the pitcher of water, follow him… there you will find me.” - Luke 22:10
That’s Aquarius. The water bearer.
Jesus predicted his return would be through the energy of Aquarius.
Which is now.
How did he know?
Well… I don’t think he did.
In fact, I’m not even sure he existed.
But that’s a story for another day. 😉
What matters is that these gospels are full of astrological truths - encoded for the few with eyes to see.
And the system?
It’s known this for millennia.
While you were kneeling, they were decoding the stars.
That’s why all the institutions are crumbling.
Why nothing feels real.
Why your addictions aren’t working anymore.
Why you feel numb and horny and angry and lost.
Because you’re waking up.
And they never taught you how to handle your own resurrection.
So What Do You Do?
Here’s what you don’t do:
Don’t go running back to the pews because you feel guilty.
Don’t try to fix your dead marriage by buying flowers.
Don’t join another tribe - political, spiritual, or otherwise.
Here’s what you can do:
Meditate (this can literally be peeling potatoes, just focus on one task!). Go inward. Shut the door.
Feel your anger, your sadness, your longing. They’re not flaws - they’re signals.
Trust that your pain is part of your path.
“The system kills the spirit… but in doing so, it sets it free.” ~ Bill Donahue
You’ve Already Been Crucified. Now Rise.
Religion tried to kill your spirit.
Your job drained your soul.
Your marriage might’ve silenced your desire.
But here you are.
Still breathing.
Still reading.
And something inside you is whispering:
“There’s more to me than this.”
You’re right.
There is.
And it was never in the church.
It’s in you.
As usual I have made a video about this to (hopefully) entertain you.
▶️ Video: “The Kingdom is Within You”
👉 Click here to watch it
Love,
Rose 🌹